I know I didn’t get any updates lately. It has been three months since my last post. I just don’t feel writing lately. I don’t have much time to write and read. I was busy with office works and endless deadlines. And with all the household chores and cctv backups we got on weekend might be the reasons why you don’t see any updates.
I love to write and update this blog regularly as much as possible as what I have written in my new year’s resolution and hoping that I could still write anything I wanted too. but to think that writing will costs me too much time without anything inside my brain and I get to watch more tv lately and play in the tablet.
Things aren’t much different lately. I still go to church with mom every Sunday and first Friday. We haven’t skipped any Sunday without church. Plans and budget and design for the construction of our house I mean additional repairs will be done next month. I was happy that mommy and daddy got their 10 years multiple entry visas to the United States this time. I’ve been helping them to fix it for the last six months since October and happy to know that on Friday they are off to California and Texas and Arizona. I got to spend more time with them. Mommy fixes her eyes and blood pressures too. I go with them every check up to make sure they are both ok and I love having them around. She had her eye surgery last February and right now she sees things clearly. Daddy is pretty cool too. He never had any dull moments. We used to laugh and I don’t seem to miss so much aboeji this time. Daddy looks exactly as my aboeji even his pomade and type of polo shirt.
I got to spend more time with mom and lao too. We also changed our eating habits. Before I have to buy stuff and have our lunch inside her office but now it’s different we go out and have our lunch at the eatery. I love to stay more inside our house during weekends and holiday. I take time to sleep and rest well. My blood pressure seems ok. And mom and lao too. We take a lot of vitamin c and less sugar and eat vegetables too. I now learned to cook and eat a lot of vegetables but we still ate chicken most of the time.
We got a happy home as we always do. We got a lot of food too that sometimes got spoiled on the fridge. I still suffer from asthma and headache. I suffered more of my migraine and wisdom tooth that I think it’s killing me. I wasn’t even sad nor alone lately. I am always with my mom and lao and the kids in our neighborhood.
I got sick twice this first quarter. I got fever, chilling and throat infection. But the antibiotic works really well for me that I don’t seem to be sick.
I was saddened by the truth that undertaker lost his battle with brack lesner making him dead in wrestlemania xxx but I was happy seeing Daniel Bryan on his heights and mighty defeating “the rock” for the very first time and his transformation was awesome and with john cena’s winning over the wyatt makes me and all my kin half to nearly full crazy!
Lao is enjoying his tour up in the north. He went to baguio and laoag and vigan together with his boss and fellow school workers. The way I see it he is absolutely happy.
We don’t have much any problem in our home and I thank god for giving us great life. Sometimes our budget cut short but most of the time the amount of money we got from our work is far enough for our family to enjoy life. We didn’t ask for more. What matter to us is that we are happy and we somehow have helped those who are in needs.
Mom is getting better everyday. Now she used all the rubbershoes to get to the office. From the last checkup we got as of last week all of her tests are ok and she is in great shape. Although still she can’t walk that fast but at least she can walk and smile to the world. Mom is retiring soon from work and that’s what I have long waited for. I will only be at ease seeing her inside our home and no burden for work and happy. All of our debts had long been paid off so we don’t worry anymore.
I attended so many trainings lately. I find it cool because I get to travel for free less is the workload I have with me after the trainings but luckily I was able to finish all of my requirements and sometimes I got a lot of compliments too. Our website is up too. It’s one of my former boss ever dream of. It’s been six months since she left us and tito ramon is our new boss. Karen is back in the office but roxy is now in her board review. Ate lala is really funny most of the time. Im still happy in our office but I don’t know if I am still happy with my job.
We got a lot of deadlines to beat and comply lately. Basically we do all the requirements to access grants from the national government to alleviate poverty in our town. I also do a lot of presentation design that was asked of me. Sometimes I wish I didn’t know about computer or internet or animation. Sometimes doing such drained my brain and even my wallet too. Sometimes I wanted to quit and leave this job I have right now. I often tell mom that I think im not growing anymore. I ask her to send me to normal school again and she said ok as soon as she retires from the office because sending me to school will mean shutdown from work and move to the prime city.
In the last four months sometimes I feel that I am so useless. I don’t know what is wrong with me. I don’t know what I want to do. I’m not into any relationship but I am still confused on what to do. Sometimes I rather sleep and stay in bed the whole day. Sometimes I spend my time in the movie house or starbucks and do shopping but still at the end of the day I cant find the word contentment, that I don’t know what I want, having all the gadgets and the money I needed to support myself but in my heart, things, aren’t always the way I wanted them to be, maybe I will follow mommy and daddy in LA when they leave but im afraid nobody will take care of mom and lao.
I know there is something wrong with me and my perspective but rest assured I’m still doing the best I could for this job for I may never know when I will be leaving this.
