my 30 years of stint in this universe!

Happy of living 29 years to the fullest and enjoying every little thing each day life could offer, today with so much thanksgiving i turn 30! i am very happy that i have reach this age. i am halfway then.  funny it may seem that the more you ask your fb friends for candy crush extra life, i, too was there begging god for my extra life. you never know how much i pray to god to give me more strength each day. i really wanted grow old and live more. i was afraid that like my older sister i cant make it on my 30. but today marks another milestone of my existence, im happy that i was able to make it .  i am happy i was born in with loving family and met friends who supported me all the way. I am so proud for as you read this I am now a 3 decade baby.

the only pictures i have from my childhood. 

29 years passed by too much quickly! half of me reminds me that i am now 30 and half of me said i wasnt aware of that. Roll out loud but that is what i feel right now. And as of this moment it doesnt come to any of my senses that i am this age. Literally, i grew up but i never grow old. it was just yesterday! i am always a kid my father love me about.

 but even so i have to accept that fact, after all who wouldnt want to turn 30 when 30 feels this good :)

I am 30 as the song goes i, too is young, wild and free!  I am not Perfect. I have learned that pretending to be perfect doesn't make us perfect. I am not perfect, and I never will be. I make mistakes and bad decisions, and I fail at times. I stumble, fall. I am human as you are. 

With whatever reasons, with whatever purpose why i am now 30 i will surely enjoy every aspect of it. 

For these milestone nor did i ask myself if am i already old for this carefree life of mine? I am viewing age as a positive simply because I have learned a ton of lessons that not only help define me, but will make future years enormously successful - emotionally, professionally, and socially.

As I look back at my last 29 years of life, there were so many special moments that came and went. I wish I would sit back and enjoyed the moments more. Absorb the good times because they are the first things you forget my mom often told me. Oftentimes you don’t realize how powerful your lives can be until you reflect and share your experiences. that's why i created this post. Opps did i say create? yah! create and not write...i find it hard to write with pen and paper. my writings goes bad. I want to reflect on my life and be sure to enjoy the lessons learned instead of regretting whatever outcomes I didn't like at the time. should i say that? anyways, here how it goes.

From where i am today is the product of all the things i have learned from my 29 years of stint. A great part was the things i have learned from my constantly reading wide range of books over the years and continues schooling, not to mention of course are the things i learned in the four corners of our office whom i consider as my second home, things i learned inside our home with my family and understanding relatives and the real life lessons i get from the people who are much wiser and older than me that i encountered everyday. 

as i wake up today i say a little prayer to god. thanking him for all the wonderful blessings he gave me and my family. waking up healthy today makes me reminisce all the things that i had endure. and as i account everything, i am happy to know that all were that positive and i was enjoying the most. although there are some major circumstances of which i had to experience i am happy to know that i had make it through. That's what i assured my aboeji in his grave, that whatever things life would bring me i will make it through!

Every little scars i have on my feet and legs reminds me of how happy my childhood was. Contractubex doesn't disappear the scars completely for it stays within. It reminds me how many times i fall from the skateboard and bike. on how much i tried to fly a kite. on how long my hair is now today tells me of how much hair i cut because i dont like the hairstyle the hairstylist done. They said that the dove soap can make you flawless and white but the soap failed me to be one believe me i have used tons of that. 

My university diploma and the amount of money mom had to spent reminds me of how much i really wanted to escape school, run, ride my bike and discover the world. I skip school and boring classes. i got A+ i got D too. I wasnt that typical college student who used to excel in class. I was never be befriended with algebra. believe me in my school days nor did those x and y axises intersect! As when im about to finish my first two years at the university I suddenly realized that I needed a college education to be taken seriously and given respect in society. Going to college provided me with the setting to meet people from all walks of life, travel to and study in far-away locales, learn about myself and the world, and ultimately, to cultivate my goals in life and figure out what is important to me.  I was on my second year when i first taste and smell the beer! The compilation of photos and the pile of albums reminds me of the bus rides, ship rides and plane rides and the long hours of travel to get to my father’s place. the endless questions of why i have to do it all mom when i was asked to clean the house, sweep the floor and be friend with the dust and the ultimate tiresome task of washing the dishes and my own clothes. and why on earth i have to please everybody. why i need to be kind and responsible all the time and why on earth i have to kiss the oldies hands on family gatherings when some smells like a donkey and cigarettes. endless questions like why cant i live my own life and let me live the way i wanted it to live it. Remembering all those things makes me laugh out loud. Not to mention how much I try to kill the cockroach but I just cant kill them.

she's the woman who brought me into the world

The countless toys and robots on our shelf accounts of how much money I have wasted to spend for the stuff I believed had bring me too much happiness even its inappropriate for me. I have always love cartoon network, tom and jerry and ang of the avatar but killua of the hunterxhunter has been my all time favorite. I take everything on their lighter side. I had always been a positive thinker. and sometimes you don’t have to tell me what to do. I am a WWE addict. i love john cena! The running shoeses reminds me of how much hatred I had to kept within me because I was known to be patient and kind that I don’t like to get mad to anybody and rather run and shout on the seashore until I run out of breathe so I could digest all things I am mad about. 

this is my grandmere and i love her so much.

It was dawn of September 14 when I was born and on that day proves of how much love god had showered me that he really wanted me to experience the beauty of the earth. i was born dead...my mom had a hard labor and loses hope but after an hour i cried out loud! i think that day will always remind mom and all those who were present of how much i really wanted to live. They said that i was that big and squishy and absolutely perfect and as i grew older they  often tell me I used to speak to my warders freely, friendly and clearly.

i grew up knowing only whats left and right. That's my mom's rule or maybe the rules my aboeji inherited from his forefathers. i dont have a lot of choices. there's no in between but even so i was so happy i live that way. way back if i dont like to then i dont have to and today every decisions i make i dont have to ask someone to fix things for me or to help me decide. it is always my instinct that favors me. therefore, i dont have to step behind. i always go to the right side. The side that fits me. The side i enjoy creating of which nobody ever tried to cross in it. Somehow my parents employ other people to mind over me and I seldom see them attend PTA meetings before. But that is ok because growing up with that situation ables me to survive and live the slanting world. Later did i know that in order to have all our needs sometimes everybody has to sacrifice. 

I grew up knowing tinkerbell and I wish to have a tons of pixie dust, i do believe in fairies! much as I love ariel (the part of the world thing yah!) taz, mr. bean and the old time favorite tom and jerry and mr. bean!  Dr. Seuss yah dr seuss i love green eggs and ham and lucky to find out how the grinch stole christmas! You see in my mind I live in wonderland and my mind is only for lighter side. Not too boring not too complicated just me. i know its crazy but i have always love the way i live. i love to play in the streets with my cousins who loves to play peter pan. i have always had a great time! i was known as "ada" by my friends and classmates but seldom knows my real name. my aboeji calls me vicoy and that's the name i am missing the most.

I was 9 when we've meet an accident along marcos highway but an angel save me and my father. the investigator told them that its impossible to survive that accident for our car was ruined siting on top of the other car. For whatever reason on how we were able to survive such thing then I don’t need and I don’t feel like knowing. What matters to me now is that i know that I’m a very blessed human. I didn’t wake up this morning in my crap and forgot my name. I have a great family, a job enough to feed me, and I’m able to do the things I love. When I find myself complaining, I just have to stop and realize how fortunate I really am compared to many in the world.

i was a middle child for 25 years until my big sister went home to heaven. The characteristics of being one remains and will always be in me. I am happy that when i was a kid i wasn’t bullied that much. Nor did my family expect a lot from me. i was love by my older sister and that of my older cousins too. In their eyes i know they still see me as young kid but even so i am happy that they love me and that what matters. 

Growing up made me pay a visit to the orthodontist quarterly i have a very bad set of teeth.I suffered a lot of pain to have this beautiful teeth. and right now i have my last set of wisdom teeth to grow sometimes it kills me but unlike before i can bear the pain and endure it too. 

I got my university degree when i was 19 and had my very first job too.  I learned how to make money and i found out that earning some is wasnt that easy. That in times when you dont feel like waking up because the weather is killing you, you have to. So did i learn how to save and look after my finances. my brother told me i will be the most thrifty person on earth if i will not change my style. hearing so make me laugh because i know when he reach my age he will do the same after all i just learned it from my kins. i have a glorious wallet i got as a gift from my aunt but honestly speaking i dont usually put any amount in their its just that everytime i put my cash in that wallet it easily runs out. so i prefer not to put them there i just used an old coin purse.   i lost my father when i was 25. i cried too much that mom told me not to cry anymore for i dont know how to stop. i find it hard to speak and understand my native language fluently but i did tried my best to comprehend it. its the environment that hinders me. in our home bicol is seldom use.

I am a church goer that never ever escape church on sundays. I have attended mass in any point of the country. i have traveled a lot from luzon to mindanao but never ever reached the municipality of tinambac which is just an adjacent town in our place.

in my 29 years of stint i have gained a lot of beautiful friends. I trusted and love them very much and they love me more too. I was blessed to have them in my life. I have said I love you the nth times and when I say it I mean it.

i only have a small circle of friends whom i trusted more than anybody else. i dont choose people. but i prefer friends who are crazy like me!

Beside games, photography, computer, english and robots i love my mom more than anybody else. my mom is my world. six years ago i have given up an international scholarship for her. for me she's the best thing since peanut butter! i am thankful for the things mom had provided me and for loving me unconditionally. In 29 years my only brother who loves choclates and who is 6 years younger than me has always been my bestfriend and no matter how bad it is to reveal the truth we never know how to cook food and dont eat the food we dont feel like eating. if it wasnt for the microwave and easy to cook food i dont know how are we going to survive the day.

in my 29 years i have always been dependent to alarm clock. i find it hard to wake up. i can sing but i cant dance...really! i only learn to play the flute. i have tried to play guitar but the guitar doesnt like me. brownout has always been my problem i cant sleep without light and that makes my life miserable. when brownout strike and i cant sleep that's my big problem comes.

i dont have any plans in my life for the next 30 years. I will let the universe mold me of what will I become and I am sure it will be absolutely perfect! If i have to plan ahead of me, my life will be definitively boring. But i am excited to know what will i be and how will i look like! Rest assured that i will take care of my finances and health and love all the people around me. And continuously grow as an individual and contribute to other people in a meaningful way. 30 years is a long time, until you live it. Thirty years may be more than you have. Thirty years may be a small fraction of your life. Thirty years though, may be all you have. I thank you for being part of my 30 years of stint in this universe and i hope and pray that on my next thirty  you will always be there for me.

I love you very much :) 
thank you for finding time to read.

mayor evelyn yu

it was during my elementary years when I first saw you in our house. With whatever reasons why you were there, I don’t feel like remembering. What I clearly recall is that my mom said you are the chief executive..I should behave accordingly. That’s the rule of the universe. We gave high respect to the chief executive. I was very afraid of you then. I named you as the dragon lady. Seeing your name even in the tarpaulin makes me anxious that I don’t like to read what the tarp is saying. 

From then on, each time I saw you on social events and have the chance of talking to you I opt to refrain myself for the fear of losing my intellectual capacity because my mom told me you are smart.

Then I graduated from college had my university diploma and units of masteral from the university you highly praised of I got the chance to work with you. And the rest is the story I will forever treasure. 

Each year that passed my mind and my heart becomes at ease with you. I stammered sometimes and forgot the lines at once but knowing that you are this cool and kind that I can say anything to you and be comfortable enough to call your cp and have the courage to talk to you personally I had replace your name from the dragon lady to my gorgeous boss.

For the last five years I look highly of you. I adore you. On how you manage your life, your home, your family, and this office. You are indeed the greatest captain of this ship.

Well I guess a lot of people who will read this will agree with me that even those who don’t like you will also tell that on the back of their minds evelyn yu has done a great part of what is Calabanga right now. I saw how hard you work for this local government. The nights you have to stay awake to oversee everything especially during typhoon season, how well you manage the government financial operations, gazillions of seminars and meetings attended, the millions of development projects you brought for the 3 consecutive terms, numerous numbers of collaborations and partnership locally and internationally that opened doors for great opportunities in accomplishing and achieving more than what the government could have afford. On how well you implemented the programs, projects and activities of the LGU, we owe all that to you. After all you wouldn’t be marked as the multi-awarded chief executive if you were not. I know you have bashers but we don’t care about them right? don’t worry it goes with the saying that we can’t gratify everybody.

the only picture i have with mayor yu :)

When you give me the Book of Abundance with Pido’s signature (how did you manage Pido's autograph?), you constantly say that from now on we should live with of what the book  says and always think positively in everything we do. We have no rooms for no’s and maybe.

With you I learned to be tough. To have a mindset. To stay focus. I was always terrified each time you asked us to prepare for the script and presentation that I have to talk to the computer literally not to crush because in no time you will return and ask for the final draft. That sometimes when you are waiting for the script and presentations to be done I was always deflated and only think of you that I can’t even accept calls and text but what a relief each time we make all your request on time. 

You told me that no matter how hard the week will be I have to make it through with flying colors. No matter how many people think negatively of you today won’t even strike even a bit in me. What matters to me and the thousands of people who knew, love and believe in you is that you have successfully proved what does it takes to be the very best. In my mind and in my heart you are the best mayor calabanga ever had. 

Indeed public service is a noble and fulfilling task. It was your ultimate goal to serve the people and ensure excellent governance. Having been given the mandate to fulfill the responsibility is both an honor and privilege. It was a dream accomplished, a promise fulfilled. Guided by the various policies, thrusts and programs, you were able to chart the roadmap towards this goal and indeed, you have achieved such goal. Though these policies have set limits at your end, you were not discouraged to introduce innovations and come up with new strategies which fueled your initiatives and effort to achieve the goal. 

Those limitations and hardships weren't considered a hindrance but rather a challenge in your quest in making things happen. Your continuing commitment to serve had always been your guiding principle in your daily chores of delivering public service and promoting public welfare. You always have the conviction that what is necessary must be done.

The opportune time for which you were sworn in to serve will legally end. The achievements and accomplishments  for the benefits of your constituents have been  the primary goal of your commitment to serve. Perhaps, the time also for the people to judge. Whatever their judgment may be, you will leave the portals of the Municipal Hall with a light heart and sense of fulfillment because we believe, with all confidence and conviction, you did make a difference!

I will be forever grateful for all the wonderful opportunity you have given me. 

Thank you gorgeous!
God Bless You always :)

i-ate ping mo ako!

Summer heat I write this from pasacao, the fish and summer capital of ordinary people of cam.sur that I have long dreamed of visiting. The images I have attached convey something of the unique character of this location as well as its breathtaking beauty. According to my watch the temperature raised at 34 degrees today. Not even a single drop of cold water from heaven will drop off. But it’s just okay for I will spend the rest of the day swimming. It's such a lovely day that I'm in a pretty good mood despite the fact that we just finished all our work requirements. I thought I could get a frozen mind inside our office room. imagine the days doing the same routine all day, dont you think its normal and things usually arent always the way we want them so just in time our boss said he thinks we all need to relax. So without much preparation we took all things we needed for this swimming adventure. 

   Give me a break a little escape mode with our DILG Director.

This is Mak doing his own magic or whatsoever. 

who would have thought that our DILG Director will pose like this with the boys!

  

We ride on a jeep going there. The road is bad and we literally eat dust .They are everywhere. It took us 2 hours to get to pasacao.

This is karen and mak....

Karen and grace!

Since its almost late we ate our dinner together.

that's roxy's smile :)

This place although the entrance is free cost us 1500 for the damn old cottage alone. Good thing it has its own restroom and it was clean the problem is that you have to fetch water.

 We aint living into mars this is just our bring all you can adventure...

what we like the most about here is the privacy and safety. yes the resort is not a first class resort but the calmness it offers says it all and after all we are all enjoying :)

angeline poses like a star!

the run out mode.

leave us alone mode....were doing just fine.

kuya gab pose

looking up above  the night  was  so bright   i saw polaris twinkling with my tired eyes.

this is what we call i-ate ping mo ako mode!

me and roxy!

we did light fire!

and the tent we never know how to place in. it took us an hour to stand this tent.

we gather woods along the sea shore.

this is niño playing guitar.

and mak never ever thought he can sing!

what a good life we all have!

some of the stone formations in the cave. they said that during world war 2 this was the hiding place of our guirellas

its cold inside

our boss said that this summer adventure will not be complete if we will not taste the famous halo-halo.

 I will miss all of them because sad to say that for today all of these kids will go back to school since they are all SPES babies of the government I am working for. I will treasure this forever because we had so much fun. See you later guys and goodluck!