Sunday, March 22, 2020

goodbye mama



I’d like to start with what I am grateful for.

I am grateful for this family. We are big but tight group. Big as in big (darakula kami) They have been an incredible source of strength in the past 2 months for me and Lao. Thank you.

Seeing the tremendous love and support here for my mom and my family is humbling and inspiring. Thank you for taking the time today to be here. It means a lot. I know that all of you really cared for us. Despite the rules we have to follow in this difficult time yet you risk yourself to get through the border just to be with mom today. 

Admittedly, this is a very emotional and challenging time for me. I’ve struggled to understand and accept this situation. Losing your mom is a deeply painful experience. It comes with a hurricane of emotions, processing, and reflection.

We are gathered here today in the memory of our one and only Lola De so that together we may acknowledge and share both our joy in the gift that her life was to us, and the pain that her passing brings. In sharing the joy and the pain together today, may we lessen the pain and remember more clearly the joy.

La’de had live a wonderful life. She gave it all to us. Her love for her grandchildren was exceptional. Habo ni mama kang bilog na chicken mas gusto nya ang choice cut ta pano daa kung ang Makua kang makuapo nya sa barangaan kang chicken liog? Gusto nya bastante. Gusto nya dakul pirmi. Mayong problema kung dakul ang sobra basta dakul dai kulang. Ice cream talaga saka halo halo ang nakakabulong sa makukulog ni La’de.

65 years na nabuhay si Lade digdi sa Paolbo ta. 37 years man syang nag trabaho kaya si La’de siguradong maogma sa bilog nyang Buhay.  It is hard to say goodbye. Lalo na ta na sanay kaming yaon sya pirmi. Maski si La’de pilay nakaka rampa yan pirmi. We wish that we had more time, and perhaps that during the time we had we had spent more of it together. We wish that so much of her life had not been lost to her illness, 14 years syang may diabetes. 14 years syang nag inject ning insulin saka nag inom ning mga bulong, that things could have been different for her, and for us. While we know that she is at peace and that her struggles are at an end, there is pain and sadness. But even though she is gone, she has left the legacy of her love and perseverance. The ways she touched our lives will remain, and I ask you to keep those memories alive by sharing them with me and with one another.

Pag may helang daa ang tao kadakul ning bawal pero Mama was never deprived of any food. She loves papaitan, sampayni, dinuguan, kaldereta, chocolate and mango shake. Intero pati ang higop ni mama kang sabaw kang karneng kandeng. There was this time na nawala yong mango shake ni lao nakakalakad pa sya non walang umamin kung sinong uminom maray ngani may nahulog na mangga sa dibdib nya kaya alam na hahahha!

But through everything Mom went through, she managed to keep her priorities straight. What can be more important than loving and showing your love for your family? How can some of us who are blessed with so much forget to be thankful to God, while somehow Mom kept her faith through all of her trials. Si La’de saro sya sa living witness kang mga miracles ni Divine Mercy. Kadakul syang naging helang pero tinabangan sya nin dios. Kaya kang si La’de inatake sa hospital tapos yaon na ang mga doctor para I intubate sya ang sabi ko sainda dai nindo kayan si mama laganan ta kung may milagro talaga gusto ko ngonyan na. kaya kang aldaw na ito binalik nya si La’de samo. Asin totoo mananggad na padangat si Lade ni divine mercy.

This is a wonderful legacy. This is a wonderful example to follow. Keep focused on what is truly important, not only when your life is easy, but when it is difficult too.

Sa gabos po na nagtarabang samo lalo na sa panahon na ini Thank you for all the love and help you have given us. Dai ko na po sasaro saroon kung siisay kamo. Sa lahat ng kazen ko na dai kami winalat poon ki papa hangang sa mga huring aldaw ni mama salamat saindong maray. Mayong katumbas ning ano pa man ang saindong pagtabang asin pag padangat samo.

Mama had made sure that we can stand on our feet and make it through maski gurano katagilid ang mundo. Basta pirmi mag pray lalo na ki divine mercy. Dai mawaran ning Pag-asa sa Buhay. Maging positibo sa Buhay. Maging maboot sa gabos na oras pero bantayan saka inngatan  ang sadiri saka dai magtiwala basta basta ta baka mapasala kita.

We are grateful mama for all the love and things you have given us. For providing me and lao everything you could afford while we were growing up. And for believing in our capacities. Sa gabos na pangaral sa Buhay. Sa pag saway samo ni lao kung maribokon kami. And for giving us a kind life. Padangat mi na mama ang harong mi kaya mayong mabago sa harong mi. gabos na tradisyon ipapadagos mi iyan maski mayo ka na ta dinakulaan mi na iyan.
Saimo nag ikot ang mundo mi ni lao mayo ng iba. Makulogon pero kaipuhan mag move on kita. Salamat La’de sa gabos-gabos. Sa ika duwang Buhay mo mama arog kang pirmi ming sinasabi saimo mabuhay kang halawig saka makusog ta pag nag abot naman ang oras mi ipadagos ta sa langit kung ano ang mga bagay na dai ta nagibo digdi sa daga na papa.

Sigurado mama na ma mimiss kang maray kang gabos na makuapo mo saka mga pamangkin mo pero magpahingalo ka na La’de. Mayo ka ng makulog. Mayo ng Ayko. Sigurado akong sulot mo na ang magayon mong sandalyas ngonyan dyan sa langit. Dai ka mag alala samo ni Lao ta makusog kami pareho. Kaya mi na mama. Padagos na sa saimong pag lakbay sa kalangitan kaiba ang satong kagurangan. Salamat na maray mama.

Padangat mi ika.